I blame Godly Play. I was introduced to this amazing storytelling technique earlier this year as part of my chaplaincy program at Children's. In it, children (and adults) are invited to "wonder" about the story, allowing them to step into the world of the story and find ways to connect it with their own lives. (You can learn more about Godly Play here if you're interested.)
When telling parables, we wonder with the kids about what things really are. We wonder how things connect. We wonder where we are in the story. In telling these stories, I have heard some amazing responses from children that make me wonder why I had never seen it that way before.
In my own life, I have been wondering. I wonder...how do I connect the pieces of my calling? It seems they have all been falling in front of me lately, but I am still struggling with how to fit them together. It's as if I have a hundred puzzle pieces in front of me, but no picture on a box to show me what it should look like. Is this green a tree, or grass? Is this a bird, a fish, a flower? I wonder what the puzzle will look like when it is finished. I wonder if I will ever finish it.
Like with the parables, it is helpful to look at each piece of the puzzle and wonder what they mean. What are the pieces of my calling? I know that I am called to work with children and their families. I know I am called to be an advocate for those children. I know that I am called to share God's Word with them. I know that I am called to teach. I know that I am called to help those in need. I know that I am called to share my story and to help others share theirs. I know that I am called to help children find the Holy Spirit in their lives through the art of creation.
Right now, it seems like I am constantly trying to put the pieces together, only to realize that they don't fit. Am I missing pieces? Do I have two puzzles mixed up together?
There is no immediate answer for these questions, for these wonderings. I don't have a simple solution. I just don't know yet. But I suppose that is why we wonder. When we wonder with children in Godly Play, we aren't seeking a RIGHT answer. We are simply wondering, playing with ideas to see how they fit. But as an adult, it is so hard to wonder! I pray for the ability of a child to wonder without seeking an answer, to wonder simply in search of understanding. That's all I can do.